cracking open

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At the beginning of each month, I pull a card from The Wild Unknown Archetypes by Kim Krans. The card I pulled to work with for July is The Faultline. My initial reaction was, “Oh, no.” But I’ve worked really hard to release those initial knee-jerk reactions and lean into any energy that is brought to my attention. Even negative energy presents a learning opportunity, and turning that initial response into a reflection has served me well.

I read the guidebook entry for this card, and once again, I realized I was being presented with an opportunity to explore a new viewpoint.

Ms. Krans shared that, in Japanese Kintsugi pottery, gold is used to mend cracks. Breaks are thought of as precious rather than something to be hidden.

I’ve heard the experience of spiritual awakening described as an inner earthquake. And, like any other earthquake, faultlines will form. The experience of an inner earthquake can be just as frightening and chaotic as a literal earthquake. Everything we once believed to be true is being challenged. What once seemed so stable is cracking open.

Another point that Ms. Krans makes is that it’s likely this cracking open is overdue, as faultlines develop slowly and naturally from underlying elemental pressures. As much as we may try to protect our inner sense of security, ignoring the warning signs of an imminent crack in the foundation of our reality is futile.

I have been dealing with the aftermath of my own inner earthquake as well as the subsequent aftershocks for the past few years. I have finally found my footing in this new inner landscape, and I am so thankful to once again feel sure of my footing. It has taken a huge amount of inner growth and healing, and I know beyond any doubt I would not have made it through the rebuilding process without support from the Universe. I’ve spent time and energy building my spiritual practice, reading, journaling, listening to spiritual mentors, and meditating.

I am now at the point where I feel the call to help others as they are experiencing their own inner earthquake. That’s why I started my coaching journey, and it’s why I started this blog. I believe that a spiritual awakening is the most profound experience a person can have in their lifetime. And I have come to believe that my life’s purpose is to uplift and encourage others as they are having this life-changing experience.